Changes

Yesterday as I was walking home from my “new home” (yes, I am moving to a new place), I saw a student carrying a big oven and he was out of breath… He stopped, took one deep breath and lifted the oven which was on the ground then tried to run as fast as possible until he was out of breath again… and then he rested for one minute and started the whole process again until he reached home – which is also my current home – a student dorm. I saw myself in him years ago and also now as I am moving things to my new place 😀

“Do you need help?” I asked

“Yes please” He replied in relief.

What a beautiful word “Yes” – I remember when I read the book “The Man Who Wanted To Be Happy” a long time ago, “asking for help” has become my mantra because you never know what people will say until you ask. Same with offering help. I felt so happy when he said Yes, then I could help him.

We brought the oven to his home, he lives on the third floor and me on the fourth.

“Good night,” I said

“Wait a moment please” He ran inside quickly and grabbed a bunch of snacks and gave them to me.

“Thank you.” I smiled and left.

Lately, I go out almost everyday after 6PM to go around Leipzig to pick up things for my new place. The journey is so long that in around 2 weeks I almost finish a thick book just by reading it to kill time whenever I am on a tram or a bus.

Since I arrived in Germany, probably this is the first time that I encounter such a big change and have to deal with problems almost by myself. I usually do things by myself but this time I feel like “more by myself” (hahaha if that makes sense) which is a good thing by the way. It helps me appreciate more the help I get from others.

Sometimes I ask myself which would make me feel happier: when someone helps me and I say accept the help OR when I offer help and they say yes to me. Maybe they are equally beautiful 😛

Yesterday I learned again the practice of being thankful for what I have. If I think carefully, actually I do not have to worry much about things in my life at the moment. My mentor always tells me to remember to have fun in life and I just forget it once in a while. If I only focus on the problems, I will always be unsatisfied. And my vision in life is blocked by the problem. But if I look at the whole picture, I can be more visionary. And yes, when I do that, things seem to go on the right path: I really enjoyed my two years of doing Master’s in Germany – everything happened just as planned, I got graduated on time, and along the way, I had lovely travel experiences and working experiences, also my German has improved a lot (so gut bin ich aber nicht :P), then I got the new apartment in a very rare situation, almost unbelievable to many. The only thing left is a full-time job – which I have to admit that it’s pretty stressful to think about 😀 Buuuuut it is not worth it to sabotage all the good things and focus only on one stressful situation right? I have so many things to be grateful for and to appreciate.

Yesterday I received a message “love you” from my mentor and I just felt so happy. Simple words are just powerful. They do give me the energy to complete more things in life, knowing that I have someone there for me is a huge privilege. Then another friend sent me photos from Santa Fe. Having people remember you everyday and want to share with you their daily moments is just beautiful.

When I write another blog, I guess that is when I am already in my new home making my way to a new start, to accomplish more things and write more blogs of course 😀

Changes are scary sometimes but they are materials of life and what make you who you are.

With love. To those who read it, you are loved!